un-fucking my brain

ok – Dr. Faith G. Harper – you cuss like a sailor and now finally someone that can TALK to me so I understand shit. Best audio book I have ever chosen – tell it sister…

At 51 (almost 52) years old, there is so much clogging up my brain I need to clean house. Listening to this therapist has totally enlightened me in a launguage I understand. Even though I buy, download and read self help articles, podcasts, meditations and books but it is a jumbled up mess in my head. Finding what works for me has been a decades long adventure. I have tried it all honey. Meditating just makes me sleepy, exercise makes me cranky because I dont like to sweat and sweat makes me feel nasty. Yeah yeah.. I know all about the endorphins shit and blahblah … but to get to that point one has to sweat and no thank you … not happening. I dont have time for a damn get to know your inner self retreat where I find the inner shit that makes me feel nutty. I like to read. But I like fiction. I am not a non fiction nutbag that keeps me in this real world. Hell with that.

So here I am … listening to Dr. Harper on my phone, while I am at work on this friday. It is only a 3 hour book. I may finish it today and become completely enlightened – glowing lightbulb over my head.

Ill let you know